I absolutely love going to school at the University of Oklahoma. It is my second year here, and I have been lucky enough to find a major that makes learning fun, a sorority that is my home away from home, organizations that help me be a part of things bigger than myself and a church that helps me grow in my relationship with God.
You might look at those things and think that I have figured this “college thing” out. I have learned a whole lot, but I still struggle. I still have my daily breakdowns and my daily calls to my mom. College is hard (like really hard), but I try to just take it one day at a time.
Lately, I have been feeling extremely lonely. This is my second year being away from home for a school year, and it is still hard on me. I still get homesick. I have friends and my sisters here. I talk to my family literally every single day. I talk to my best friend all day and every day through lots of texts and facetimes. Although I have some incredible people in my life, when life gets rough I tend to get super lonely and sad.
I know that in my case, when life gets hard I tend to completely shut down. I do not want to talk to anyone. I do not want to be around anyone. I just want to be alone which makes me feel even lonelier.
Luckily, there is someone I can turn to during those times. Someone who is there for me no matter what time of day it is. Someone who is there for me no matter what day it is. Someone who is there for me no matter where I am at. Someone who is there for me even when I do not deserve it. Someone who is there for me during the good times and the bad. Someone who is there for me when I realize I need help, and even when I do not realize it. Someone who is there for me forever and always. Someone who never leaves my side.
Who is that someone? That someone is God.
“So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.” Isaiah 41:10
There is something amazing about that verse that gives me an instant peace. The God that created the universe cares about us and promises that He will always be there for us. That is pretty amazing if you think about it.
It is incredibly easy to get wrapped up in everything that is going on around me. It is easy to get stressed out. It is easy to forget my worth and value during hard times. It is easy to get caught in a storm and feel like I will never escape.
God still loves you in all of those situations. He does not love you any less when you mess up. He knows you inside and out. God wants you to come to him no matter what you are feeling.
There is one thing that I have to remember: God is a constant. He will always be there for me no matter what.
Life gets hard and things change, but luckily one thing that never changes is who God is and how much He loves us.
My family and friends are great at comforting me, and I love them for their endless love and support. But, I have to always remember to turn to God first. He knows where I am at and He understands how I am feeling. He is the God of Comfort who can instantly put me at peace.
When the world fails me, which it always will, God is right there waiting for me. All I have to do is turn to Him through prayer and His word (the bible). Luckily, He always knows exactly what to say.
So the next time you are like me and feeling a type of lonely that you cannot even explain, turn to your Creator. Turn to your God that loves you. Turn to your King of Peace. Turn to your Heavenly Father.
“Yet I am always with you; you hold me by my right hand. You guide me with your counsel, and afterward you will take me into glory. Whom have I in heaven but you? And earth has nothing I desire besides you. My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.” Psalm 73:23-26